🅰🅻🅸🅲🅴 (🌈🦄)<p><a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/CW" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>CW</span></a>: talk of abuse, control, and food.</p><p>This morning at breakfast my partner apologized for leaving the heel* of the bread loaf for me, and I was reminded of how much my ex used to control my eating.</p><p>*there was another loaf thawing, so I could have easily eaten that instead of the heel.</p><p>I used to get a "talking-to" for:<br>- eating the last of anything my ex might want.<br>- not eating the last of anything my ex didn't want.<br>- asking for things I wanted (like Swiss cheese**).<br>- cooking something for myself that they liked.<br>- cooking something for myself they didn't like.<br>- not cooking things just the way they liked.<br>- eating "too much".<br>- being "too thin".</p><p>**earlier in my relationship with my current partner, while we were at the grocery store, they asked if there was any cheese I wanted. I said "I like Swiss" as I broke down crying, following up with "but I'm not really allowed to get it".</p><p>My current partner is amazing, and my ex is my ex for a lot of good reasons, and I'm happy-sad crying a bit this morning, and I just want anyone who this list resonates with to know they aren't alone—that's abuse, plain and simple—and you can get out too.</p><p>Here's some info on coercive control (just ignore the ad for BetterHelp, because fuck them):</p><p><a href="https://psychcentral.com/health/coercive-control" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="ellipsis">psychcentral.com/health/coerci</span><span class="invisible">ve-control</span></a></p><p><a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/Abuse" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Abuse</span></a> <a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/AbuseSurvivors" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AbuseSurvivors</span></a> <a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/CoerciveControl" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>CoerciveControl</span></a> <a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/EatingDisorders" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>EatingDisorders</span></a> <a href="https://lgbtqia.space/tags/MentalHealth" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MentalHealth</span></a></p>