#Journal of a slightly emotional Dutch Pixy (Tuesday, 15/04/2025).

I woke up an hour before the alarm. I thought I'd heard Arwen, but she was only walking around as she'd been for a drink. So I got up, did the scale thing, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. Took my meds, prepped Arwen's food, and took her out for her things... When she was done, I gave her her food, I hugged her, got my bag, and headed to the gym.

I caught up with the notifications while I was in enjoying the protein shake, and waiting to th meds to kick in... When I was ready, I got to the seated bike. Rode it for 35 minutes, and then I enjoyed the massage chair for ten. I quickly switched my shoes and then headed back home.

Arwen was happy to see me. I washed up, changed clothes, and had brekky. The weather was OK enough for walkies, so we had a nice short one. Arwen still enjoys the walks, but she is glad to walk the shorter one. It makes me a bit sad that we can't walk the longer walks anymore, but as long as she enjoys these, I'll keep doing them with her. And I do love to take th nightly selfie with her.

When we got back, I switched clothes and I rode the hometrainer for an hour. Then I did some exercises. Headed back down, and worked on my blog a bit. Then Arwen wanted walkies, so we headed out. She did her thing and then we went back to the couch for some relaxing.

Ow wait! I had a chore to do first. I built the laptop table that I bought at Ikea yesterday. It's a bit high for the couch, but it should be perfect for my hospital bed after the surgery.

I emailed the vet to explain the situation Arwen was in now. I just can't do calls properly, especially when it's about something which makes me sob when I just think of it...

As Arwen was a bit tired, and so was I, I didn't take her to the Herperduin. Which she didn't like me for... We had normal walkies, but we didn't see the neighbor, so she was still a bit grumpy with me.
I got out the new curtains and tried to remove the old ones. I got the new ones hanging, and it already made quite a change, light wise, in the room! Around 7:40, I walked to the store to get some groceries. I was allowed in a little earlier, and at 8:02, I was already walking back home again...

I enjoyed some food and relaxed with Arwen for a bit. She wanted walkies, but she didn't see the neighbor... She thought she did, but that wasn't her, so if course she got annoyed with me for not getting her to see the neighbor !

When we were back and she saw the neighbor walk by, she just pestered me to head out again... So we did. It made the neighbor laugh, as she knew we'd already been out for walkies, and there we were again... We had a nice walk.

Some relaxing and food for us. And around 11 we went out again. My PT was half an hour later than usual, so that threw me off quite a bit! After walkies, I hugged Arwen and headed to Cuijk, hoping all would go well...

The PT session was painful but good. He helped me with my sore elbow. Which really made the pain less intense. Yay!

I rode back home, and when I got there, I saw the vet had emailed me back. Arwen was allowed otehr meds. Yay! But... They turned out to be expensive, of course, so I'd have to figure out how to get the funds. I had some, so I guess I'd have to ask for the rest from my parents....

Arwen and I had a good walk with N&B, and the weather was nice when we started. It was getting more dark and grey, as there was some rain in the air.

Arwen and I relaxed a bit while some rain fell. Then it was time to head out for walkies again. There still was some rain, and there was a colder wind. I'd gone out without my jacket, so I was a bit cold and I didn't have snacks for Arwen. So yeah, I didn't score any points with that action!

I got ready for bed. Leaving the bedroom door open again so that Arwen could reach me should she need me. I fell asleep rather easily, as I was dead tired. When I woke I thought it was 22:53. But then I got up and yeah, it was an hour earlier... So I started my day/night again, a little earlier than planned...

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#Journal of a Dutch Pixy (Sunday, 13/04/2025).

I woke up an hour before the alarm. I was wide awake, so I started my usual routine. Scale, clothes, meds... Prepping Arwen's food and taking her out to do her business. I got a little tail wag when I went to cuddle her, so of course that teared me up... She's so precious... I fixed her food. And put out the snacks. Got my bag and headed for the gym.

I checked the notifications and social media. When the meds kicked in, I tried to ride the seated bike. I was a tad emotional so that made it a bit harder. After the ride, I enjoyed a massage in the chair. Then I quickly changed my shoes and got ready to head home.

I washed up and got dressed. Enjoyed my brekky. Then Arwen and I got ready for walkies. The weather was rather warm, as it was still 16°C! But there was a promise of rain, finally. It's been ages since we'd seen some rain... But we walked the short round well, and it only started to drizzle when we were close to home.

I felt tired and just wanted to be near Arwen for a while. I wanted to watch some telly, but by accident, the TV stated up the PS5, and I ended up playing some NMS instead. Just doing some silly things... But being on the couch with Arwen at my feet... It was heavenly.

After some time, Arwen wanted out for walkies. So I got my umbrella and we went out for a bit. She did her thing, and then we headed back home. I fixed some food. Then, when it was getting light out, I asked Arwen if she wanted to go to the Herperduin. That was answered with a happy jump, so I got the things and we went to Skoosh.

We didn't walk a long round, as she was a bit tired. And I didn't get any snaps, as the weather wasn't the best. But she had some play time at the water side, and loads of sniffs in the woods... So I recon it was still a succes for both her and me.

When we got back, we headed for the couch and we relaxed with some telly together. Of course, when it was close to 9, Arwen wanted her usual walkies again. And she was lucky, as her friend was just coming around the corner as we headed out. We had a nice walk.

After that, I relaxed a bit with some some more telly. Around 11, Arwen wanted walkies again. But then, as we had just headed out, mum texted me that she was allowed to go home. So we finished the walkies and then headed to the car.

I took Arwen to my dad, and took the parking card for mum. There was plenty of space now so that was a plus. I got the wheelchair and I headed to the floor. I tried to text mum, as I didn't know the room number. When mum remained silent, I just called her. Finally, contact! Haha. Of course we had to wait for a bit before she was all ready and set to go. I wheeled her to the exit, we got to the car, and I took her home. After I had taken the bags up for her, Arwen and I headed back home again.

We had some time to relax and then it was time for walkies already. The weather was weird, one moment it was chilly and wet, and then it was sunny and hot...

We relaxed some more and then we went for a last walk before bedtime. I closed all the curtains in the living room, so that I could have my bedroom door open for Arwen.

It didn't take too long to fall asleep. When I woke up, it was an hour to the alarm, so I just got up and started my day/night. I was greeted by a tail wag again, so teary eyed I hugged her for a great start of the day...

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#Journal of an emotional Dutch Pixy (Wednesday, 09/04/2025).

I woke long before the alarm. I had a bad nightmare... And my whole body was sore... So I just got up and started my day/night... I did the usual things, scale, dressing, meds, Arwen... I felt tired and a bit emotional, stupid hormones and stress. When Arwen was happily eating, I got my bag and I headed to Skoosh.

I checked my social media and waited for the meds to kick in. I rode the seated bike and then I enjoyed a massage in the chair. I just felt so tired, stupid body and nightmares... I switched my shoes and headed back home again.

Washed up, changed clothes, and had brekky. Then Arwen and I went out for SniffiVerse™ walkies. The weather wasn't too bad. But Arwen was struggling a bit. So we walked the "in-between" walkies. When we got back, I got to the hometrainer for half an hour. Then I relaxed on the couch with Arwen. I just felt so tired and exhausted.

We went for walkies and then I read some of my eBook. When bestie called, we had a nice chat. I had a bite to eat. And then I headed to the garden with the rake and I tried to get some more work done in the front garden. Ugh, my body wasn't happy about it, and every sweep I made hurt my back and arm. But I did my best to rake out as much of the weeds that were still there. Now I need to ditch the sand, stones, and the weeds... But not today...

I went back in, had some relaxing time, and then Arwen wanted walkies. When we headed out, the neighbor was just coming around the corner. So Arwen was very excited about that. We had a nice walk, but it was grey and chilly. After that, I retreated to the couch and I watched telly. Around 11, Arwen wanted a short walk, so we headed out again.

I was a rather emotional wreck today, as I felt so worried that I would lose Arwen before the surgery. And I felt so selfish got wanting her to be there for me when that time comes... I know Arwen is slowly showing her age, but I don't want her to suffer because of my selfish needs. But the idea of having to lose her in a time where so much is happening... I don't think I could handle her passing, should it happen now... So many stressing things and that would push me over the edge for sure. So then I sobbed some more....

I was exhausted and I snoozed a bit on the couch, till Arwen gave me such a stare that reminded me that it was time for her walkies. So yeah, I got up again. Texted N, and we got ready to go...

We had a shorter walk, as both Arwen and B were showing some signs of dealing with some discomfort with their paws. So a shorter round... Then I relaxed a bit on the couch, till I was ready to head to bed.

Arwen did the last wee and we said goodnight. I had a rubbish sleep, I woke feeling too cold, woke feeling all sweaty, I had bad dreams... I got up earlier, as I just had enough of the nightmares and all of that...

Ready, or not, to start a new day/night...

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#Journal of a slightly anxious Dutch Pixy (Tuesday, 08/04/2025).

I woke up an hour before the alarm. I had not woken before, so it was a long sleep. And now I just had to get up and start my day. The scale was being less kind, so that was a bummer. I got dressed and took my meds. Prepped Arwen's food and took her out to do her things. She was happily eating when I got my bag and headed to Skoosh.

I checked my notifications while I was enjoying my protein shake. When the meds kicked in, I got to the seated bike and did my thing. A nice massage in the chair later and then I got ready to head home again. I remembered (in time) that I had meds to pick up, so I drove to the pharmacy to use the medical safe thingie. I entered my code and I got the correct stuff. Yay!

I got home, washed up, changed, had brekky. Then Arwen and I got ready for SniffiVerse™ walkies. The weather wasn't too bad, and we had a nice walk. Although I do wonder if Arwen is struggling a bit more with the longer walk these days. Poor gall.... I worked a bit on my blog.

When we got home, I got the laptop and I worked on my journal post. I made sure it got ready to be shared at 7. I was feeling rather tired after that, so I relaxed on the couch a bit. I just felt very bläh and I didn't like it... Had my usual morning walk with Arwen and then I read a bit. Bestie called but she got called herself during that call, so we only had a short chat. I read a bit in my eBook and then I got ready to head to Lidl. But Arwen indicated she wanted a short walkies, so I took her out to do her thing before I left.

I was still too early, so it wasn't all bad. When the store opened, I quickly got what I needed, and then I headed back home again. I fixed some food and relaxed a wee bit. And then... Arwen wanted walkies again. We saw the neighbor, so Arwen was all delighted.

I wanted to call the hospital today, to check for the surgery date, and I found out that the only times to call were Tuesday and Friday between 10:30-12:00. So I had to wait a bit... When it was time, I called, and got a tape saying to call between said times. Eugh, I had waited till 10:30, so they were just running late? I immediately called again and then... There was someone already connected. Ah well, wait and wait... The lady checked things and then she had the best date for me! Friday the 13th! If I were superstitious, I could have a later date. But I just giggled and took this one, as the sooner the better! So when I hung up, I finally knew the date. It wasn't set in stone, but if all goes well, this will be my surgery date. June 13th. Check!

Feeling the anxiety slowly be released from my body, I relaxed a bit. Till it was time for the walkies. When we were almost home, the neighbor came out. And even though Arwen seemed tired, she still wanted to join them. So I could tell about my news.

I felt so tired after that, that I spend loads of time on the couch just watching telly... Hopefully the rest of today and yesterday will mean that I can get some gardening done on Wednesday.

Around 13:30 we went for walkies again. The dogs had a good time and the neighbor and I had some laughs as well. During the walk, I missed a call from a private number. No voicemail. Thinking it could be the hospital, I switched on the sound, just in case they'd call again. Which they did. After a longer talk, the lady was nice but she wasn't a fast talker , I had some appointments planned. I was grateful that they felt like I didn't really need the physio prep for the surgery. I kinda know how the crutches work... And I know how to get in and out of the bed. And how to transfer to car seats. And how to do stairs... I am a pro . (unfortunately).

I relaxed a bit with Arwen, and when it was time, I let her out to do het things. I went to bed and it didn't take too long to fall asleep.

I woke once and then again, after having a bad nightmare. My whole body was tense, so it was best to get up, even though I still had 70 minutes till the alarm. Ugh... Well, let's start the new day/night, I guess...

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#Journal of a slightly broken Dutch Pixy (Friday, 04/04/2025).

@tldr please do your thing for me!

I had a restless night. I woke several times due to silly reasons, mostly because of stupid dreams that were triggered by the nasty comment some bully left me on one of my toots... I woke with the alarm, and then went to the scale. Ow, at least it was kinder to me, as I was just below the 80 kilos. I got dressed, took my meds, prepped Arwen's food, and let Arwen out for a wee. She was happily eating when I got my bag and headed to Skoosh.

I caught up with the notifications while I waited for the meds to kick in, and while I enjoyed my protein shake. I rode the seated bike for half an hour, which seems about the max time that my leg will allow it these days. I had a massage in the chair and then I switched shoes and headed back home again.

I washed up and had my brekky. It was weird not to be greeted by the little black furball, but it was also good to just be me and Arwen again. After brekky, Arwen and I headed out for the SniffiVerse™ walkies. The weather was decent enough, with 8°C and it being dry. At the open area, there was some wind, making it a bit chilly. Arwen wanted a longer walk, so I let her have all the sniffs.

When we got back, I got my laptop and I worked on my journal blog post. I tried to add decent (AI) alt texts and all that. When I finished most of it, I prepared my food. Arwen and I both enjoyed it. And then it was time to walk Arwen. After that, I had a wee bit of relaxing, during which I played a little of NMS. Then I got my bag and I headed to Skoosh. Drove to the Appie for some groceries. I needed two of something, so naturally they only had one... So I'll have to try and get another one next week. Ugh... Bummer!

When I got back, I relaxed some, until Arwen wanted her walkies. On our way back she was a lucky gall, as N&B were heading our way. Nomnoms! Haha! After the walk, I picked up the garden tools at N, and I was able to borrow a shovel from their neighbors, which helped me a lot! It was hard work, but due to the shovel, I got so much done!

I worked on the garden for a little over an hour. Then, my body just said a big nope! I was sweaty, tired, and getting very sore. But, even though it wasn't finished, I sure could see the difference between the "before and after" snaps that I had taken.

As it was really sunny, I decided to wash Arwen's paw towels and her winter jacket. They were in need of a wash, and at least the electricity would be cheap this way.

I fed Arwen and then I was able to relax a wee bit. When Arwen wanted walkies, I felt I was wagging like a penguin as my right leg and my back just were to sore. We got back, and I got my relaxing garden chair, and my eReader, and a cold drink... I enjoyed some time in the back garden, with some sun, and I was able to read two chapters of my book. Yay! When I wanted to head inside to prepare things for the last walkies, my brain was like "wait, what if..?!". So I got the shovel and tried to loosen up several of the weed bits in the back garden. Maybe they can dry out a bit and then I can take them out as well.

After I did that, and my hands and arms were like "nope, no more!", I prepped the bed time thingies. I went to the loo and then Arwen picked me up. Apparently, N texted when I was on the loo, saying B really wanted walkies. So... On our way we went! The weather was really lovely and the dogs had a nice time at the puddle. But the puddle is in need of some rain for sure! As it's getting smaller and smaller and more muddy... But there's no real rain in the forecast yet? It's been the most dry March we've had in years, so the land is in need of some good rain. And, while I do prefer it being dry when I need to walk Arwen, I also know some rain would be good for the nature...

After walkies, I relaxed on the couch a little. Then I let Arwen out for a wee, and I got to bed. I had another restless night where I woke several times until I finally drifted off till the alarm woke me. Ready to start the weekend!

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