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@actuallyautistic BTW, this payment is still stuck in purgatory a month later. I'm expecting to never get it. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid

@actuallyautistic ...this is tragic considering today the landlords decided to get take out instead of preparing meals. And WON'T because of election day. I will simply get no food today. I'm broke and now foodless. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid

@actuallyautistic The other shoe has dropped. The pizza restaurant that saved my life has stopped providing meals until I become a paying customer again. That also means paying back $80-$100 worth of owed meals. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid

@actuallyautistic ...if you were asking for proof how bad mental health care is in British Columbia, the fact this happened is indisputable proof that backs up what I've been saying over the past few months. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic For those unaware: https://globalnews.ca/news/11152310/lapu-lapu-festival-tragedy-vancouver-man-charged-murder/

The quote below says it all. The system here is so broken there's nothing to DEAL with people with poor mental health rather than just recycling them and having the police constantly put them in custody/jail. Mental health workers in this province would much rather say "I'm not paid enough to deal with this shit."

Don't let me become another statistic like him. I've lost my entire support circle in the last few weeks and have been on edge myself.

@actuallyautistic because there was no room in the initial posts, here are the donation links once again:

North American donations: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g=14

EU donations: https://gofund.me/007216f9

@actuallyautistic my last local friend to my surprise gave me the SSD I thought he was going to withhold forever, but says I still owe $100. With the gamble I placed on the shop, I can't pay my friend neither even though I have the SSD. He's also still down a car because his parents decided to not help him progress until he learns the lesson of having savings. My anxiety that it means I will be abandoned is through the roof. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic the only thing remaining broken on my 13 Pro Max is the screen. It's not getting bright enough in daylight and doesn't effectively auto-brightness itself.

The repair fixed broken NFC and the spots in the sensor by replacing with another camera module.

This is the closest I've gotten to fixing the lemon phone.

Food costs going up took me by surprise as the usual Chinese place I get my meals full of turmeric from increased their prices by $2 after tax.

Yellow curry chicken on white rice is something I need to eat to promote anti-inflammatory properties to stay healthy while I am not paying attention to my health, but now it got more expensive.

Generosity can only go so far, and I also owe a pizza restaurant $60 after going to them during the night I had my meltdown, and they saved my life with money and pizza. If they hadn't helped, the outcome of my roommate threatening to kill me would be far worse. I'm obligated to repay that generosity. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic My psychologist just gave up on me again because she wasn't paid.

Verbatium:

"I’m sorry I can’t help you. You will find the ability to cope somehow."

Killing myself sounds pretty good right about now. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic BTW, because my phone is broken, I can't call the crisis line. Going to the bridge and jumping off almost sounds like a better option. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic NOW THEY'RE VACUUMING #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic One more thing to trigger me at the house and I literally will go jump off the nearest bridge. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic I've got Jacksepticeye yelling at 100dba over my speakers and it's still not masking the noise. Screw OSHA. If pain is going deaf, I'd rather self harm. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic Not only am I getting no food due to the party, I can't sleep it off even with the strongest sleep aid. See my pinned posts to donate so I can have money to eat out to avoid the noise at home to avoid getting triggered. #aspie #aspielife

@actuallyautistic oh and they frequently enter and exit the garage, and that door has no soft dampener. So everytime that door is used it's a violent SLAM, even at 2AM. That door is right next to my bedroom. #aspie #aspielife