On and on and on… 
" and thank you for checking out my babbling corner of the interwebs. I will try not to repeat too much of what I've been sharing recently, and when I do, I will try to link the original blog post to it, for those that may be interested. 
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https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/06/07/on-and-on-and-on-%e2%99%be%ef%b8%8f/
Busy, too busy… 
https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/05/24/busy-too-busy-%f0%9f%98%ae%f0%9f%92%a8/
Today's Wandering Shop Stories #prompt is #routine. Feel like writing something short and sweet that has the word "routine" in it? Check out the definitions of the word at: https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/routine Join in and tag it with #wss366! #writing #WritingLife #microfiction h/t @asakiyume.@wandering.shop
I can do it!
It just takes more time... ...and I sometimes need help... ...but that's OK! I've blogged before about feeling like I'm stuck with this adulting thing. That it sometimes just doesn't feel worth it. Or, I do it, and a short time later, it just looks like I've not done it at all...
And I know it's not just me struggling with these things. But, especially when it comes to cleaning, it's harder. And since I've been living in a construction area, and they're still not done... There's just so much more sand and dust! 
And, that just makes it harder, and the work feels less rewarding...
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Daily rituals include coming up to this viewpoint first thing in the morning and last thing at night with a lunchtime visit very often too.
Having a dog who needs plenty of walks is our excuse but we are always keen to see what show is being presented. This sunset is yet another variation. Is you look down my timeline you will see many more…
Just keep going…
...but why does it feel so hard some days? Life is a journey. You only know that, one day, in one way or another, the journey will reach the final destination, and it will all be over. To those with certain believes, the one journey will be ending, while a new journey may be starting again, some way, some how. And, that can be a beautiful thought. But, when things are hard, it can be scary too. Because, when I am facing the harder days, I dread them loads, and when the dark monster has a really strong grip on me, the hardest days make me fear to continue the journey. But well, I will keep going. I have tried to give up in the past. I took an OD of sleeping pills when I was at the lowest point of my life. It took me over a year to gather the bits and bops and to start enjoying life again. And I think I did rather well. I have a small group of friends, but they do mean the world to me. And I have some very sweet online friends. I'll probably never be able to meet them, but that doesn't mean that I don't care about them. I have Arwen, and my parents. I have a new place that still needs a lot of work, so I hope to work on that, bit by bit... So, reasons enough to not give up! But some days... […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/05/07/just-keep-going/
I find it so frustrating sometimes: the daily cycle.
Wake. Take meds. Gently coax my brain into accepting the morning state (which usually involves scrolling through whatever cute or amusing videos I can find on instagram to deliver reward chemicals enough to make the body feel like it can push through the next number of unrewarding tasks - making breakfast/tea, using those minimal but short term effective rewards (and some deficit as the body has to process the food which slows me down) and more serotonin and dopamine-seeking scrolling, social interaction, or other minor activity to build me up to expending energy showering and focused care shaving, brushing teeth, applying moisturiser to face and other areas, then becoming mentally quiet enough to hear how the body (subconscious) wants to be represented and expressed via clothing and colour this day, modified to suit weather and climate, before finally being able to even consider leaving the private dwelling.
By then it is often nearly midday or even after, depending on the chemical cocktail in my brain or time of month or weather. Then the day has its short dance and then it's dinner, then the uppers have worn off and it's either an emotional disaster or a pleasant evening or anywhere in between. Always alone. Then back to that crib of my repeated resurrection - the bed and single anxiety blanket.
I need routine and yet I loathe it all so quickly. It becomes mundane. Flat. Nothing more than a series of neverending tasks.
Often I will get distracted before I get done with the morning routine and in the process of seeking enough reward chemicals to press forward and endure, become focused and busy on some other productive thing only to feel worse by showering and dressing even later by psychological conditioning of my youth and past.
#WSJ #Trump administration is withdrawing from some types of #whitecollar law #enforcement, including cases involving #foreign #bribery, public #corruption, #moneylaundering and #crypto markets effectively redefining what business conduct constitutes a #crime. #WhiteHouse #executiv order in Feb said #bribery prosecutions hurt the ability of #US companies to compete #overseas, punishing them for practices that are #routine in some parts of the world. #WTF https://www.ncja.org/crimeandjusticenews/doj-is-leaving-some-kinds-of-white-collar-crime-enforcement #ElSalvador
Was it worth it? 
As they helped me move most of my things from Cuijk to Herpen. And... That's where I am now. But...
Was it worth it? 
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https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/04/14/was-it-worth-it-%f0%9f%8f%a1/
If someone could tell me the way in which they gamify there day to day life that isn’t focused on hyper productivity or that vibe i would be forever urs. Like i just want a way to clean my room and feel like im a fairy in a forest while doing it. Is that really too much to ask? #queer #gamify #art #routine
Routines are useful things, although I’ve never thought of my daily reading of #ForwardDaybyDay as “marinating ourselves daily in the stories of our Savior’s life & ministry” as #TheDisciplesWay puts it today. Honestly, I’m not sure I think of it, or saying the hours, as #BibleStudy either. Bible study is what I do on Tuesdays at #EfM The rest is just…IDK what I think it is but it’s not Bible study. This week in #Lent is about #learning & the suggested approach is the #LectioDivina it’s interesting that, as I read the descriptions of the movements, I already do 2 — meditation & contemplation. I try to pray (oratio) though I don’t think I have a great #PrayerLife And Lectio, or reading aloud, you can forget. IDK if I don’t want people knowing that I am reading the Bible or if I just dislike the sound of my own voice. Either way, I don’t do it & perhaps I should. Maybe it’s time I change my perspective on Bible study. Maybe it’s time to change my #routine.
Observate, adapt, adjust
After several months being in the new place, I kinda have a routine. It's not ideal yet, but it works for now, and I need to find a way to make it work even better. So, I've been observing my current routine, I've been focusing on how things go now, and what I could do to make it better. Or, what I think will be better, as I won't know till I've tried. I want to go back to the schedule that I had in Cuijk, as it seemed to relax me a bit better than my current routine does. Especially when I wake up way before the alarm is set to go off, and I can't sleep anymore... I get to the gym too early, it's still too "crowded" for my linking. The roads are still busier. I get hungry earlier, making it harder to resist snacking during the day. So I needed to write out my current schedule and then see if, and how, I could make adjustments to improve it. I know that this won't be easy, as somewhere this year, I'll also need to have surgery, which means that I have at least 6 messed up weeks where I can't do anything properly at all... […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/03/10/observate-adapt-adjust/
Newly learned dance routine for Anchors 
#Hori7on #kpop #dance #routine #new #instagram #choreo
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C6loAZySNAO/?igsh=MjMwaXQ0eWpzYWpl
AuDHD – Breaking the routine
I've shared plenty of times that my routine is very important to me. During and after the move, I've struggled hard. During Xmas and new year, I struggled. And then, when I hoped that things would get back to normal again, there was another disruption. Big weather warnings
due to ice and snow.
It meant it could get dangerous to go to the gym, should the snow and icy conditions start earlier than they expected. So I had to change my plans. And even though I knew that it was the wisest thing to do, even though it was just one night, I struggled! And that makes me feel like I'm being silly. It just one night, things should be back to normal the next day... But yeah... It's not that easy!
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https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/02/08/audhd-breaking-the-routine/
Sometimes it feels fake…
...if that makes sense...
I thrive on routine, as many of you following this blog may already know. And I feel like it helps me loads, I know what to expect, I know what I need to do. I know what to prepare for, what will take the most spoons, when I can relax and just be a couch potato...
But there are times that it just feels fake...Like I just do things because it's expected of me to do. You have to do this and that, because that's "part of life". You have to do the daily chores, you have to keep going and do what you "need to do".
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https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/02/05/sometimes-it-feels-fake/
@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd @actuallyaudhd
What's your #morningroutine?
Regardless of when I wake up, I stay in bed 'til 7am. I then strain my #kefir. Feed my #sourdoughstarter. Check my other #ferments. Feed the #dog and take him out to pee. Eat oatmeal with chia and flax seeds, banana and fermented apples. Drink a cup of kefir. Do my #duolingo. Hop on the #bike. Shower, get dressed and then out the door to run errands.
One day at a time…
...sometimes feels too long... When things aren't going all that well, when it can be a struggle to make ends meet, to get chores done, to find enough spoons to be somewhat functional... Sometimes even taking things one day at a time can feel like it's taking too long... If that makes any sense... When you are doing something you enjoy, when you are having fun, it sometimes feels like "time flies by". And I guess the opposite can be said, or in this case written, about non-enjoyable time seems to crawl slower than a snale climbing mount Kilimanjaro...
And when you try to take things one day at a time, even though "simple" 24 hours can feel like they're lasting way longer than that.
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https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/01/17/one-day-at-a-time-2/
@stevencudahy #WritingCommunity #CreativeWriting
#MastoPrompt #Challenge #Poem #Poetry
#Prompt: #Renew
From my 16 year old son, Dylan:
My regular trip
To the library right now
To renew my books!
Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 
I always love interacting with new like-minded people. My biggest issue... I'm unsure of how to interact with them at first! Which makes it very challenging to "meet" new people online that could become part of my Friendos...
For those new to this account and my silly way of writing: Friendos is a word that I use with love and affection! I wrote a Toot a while ago in which I explained the term, so I'll link that here, as I don't have the spoons to explain again...
https://beige.party/@PixysJourney/113037270040835780
As I wrote in my introductions, yes I made two and I think I pinned both, I'm Actually Autistic, I'm very ADHD, I battle with depression and anxiety, I may have some slight forms of OCD and PTSD, as I struggle with aspects from both... And then there's physical issues that bother me as well...
I would love to chat more, when I have the spoons, with people who, like me, are "weirdos". I'm a bit of a nerd, but not into the details... Not smart enough for that...
I love to chat about health issues, about my dog, about my journey through life, about music, TV things and gaming...
I do struggle at times with the whole "social" aspect of the social media. Either I babble so much that you are exhausted when I'm done... Or I just read and like your toots. I occasionally boost toots. But not that often as I probably should?
I have several other accounts that I use, and also occasionally boost things from. But this is my main account at the moment.
Put Beige master blessed us with something like 11001 characters to work with! I've never used them all, but I'm known to write longer posts. I enjoy using emojis as I feel they help me express myself. I try not to use them too much, as I don't want to make people that need a teen readers go insane over my toots....
I try to use CW when I feel that things may be triggering. I don't CW my selfies anymore, but I do tag them with the hashtag EyeContact and Selfie. So hopefully these can help folks to filter my selfies from their time lines. (I've tooted about eye contact selfies and this was what was suggested to me by kind people who voted/replied).
I'm mostly active during my countries night time. I'm a night owl with a different routine than most. But this works best for me, so I always mention it to others, so they know. I'm in the Netherlands, so that's UTC+2, according to the interwebs.
I have moved house two months ago. A new town. A new start with everything new, routine wise. It's been a huge challenge, and it still is... So I still Toot about that a lot too.
I have a chocolate brown Labrador gall, Arwen, who turned 11 in July. She's a topic of many toots as well. I occasionally share videos of her here. Sometimes snaps, which I also share on my 
Pixelfed (and then boost here).
I write for my own blog, which is mostly about me and my journey of life. My site van be found here: https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/
So yeah... I share loads! And I love to share experiences. I love to learn new things about topics I'm interested in. And I like to "meet" new people who are kinda like me and would love to share timelines with me. 
Guess this is a sort of #Introduction Toot that wasn't intended as one, nor was it written like the usual ones. Guess that kinda sums me up a bit. Unusual 
I'll end the Toot with my usual emojis and hashtag and then I'll add some more tags to maybe be able to connect with more "weirdos" like me! 
Extra tags (in no particular order) :
#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #NeuroSpicy 
#Labradorable #Labrador #Walking #Nature #PixysSnaps #Gaming #Photography #TV #Blog #ChronicallyIll #Fibromyalgia #Fitness #Hypermobility #WeightJourney #Routine #NightOwl
#EyeContact in attached #Selfie
Pixy's Journey 